D@nC!nG R@Bb!+

今天，公司里的电脑换了新的一部。只是，那位安装电脑的小弟功夫有点不到家，很多时候都不知道他到底会不会安装的。一整个下午，无所事事看着他安装和update电脑。糟糕，我的工作都没有进展，都是电脑的错。（又在耍赖了:P）

新电脑是LCD荧幕，速度也明显快了。只是，很多平常用的程式都还没有install进去，他们说还得等（不知道等什么，也不明白他们为啥不一次把所有东西弄妥。也许他们只是负责安装电脑，软件部分不属于他们的工作范围？）

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Sometimes, it's quite disheartening to work in this current "so-called" multinational company.
Everyday, they are saying their missions n vision are to become the industry leader, to become the 1st choice for all users etc....Ya right......but when your ppl within the organization just unwilling to move, move in the same direction as what you stated in ur missions n vision. Worse, they are going backward instead of going front.

It's not that I'm criticising and comment something negative about this particular company. But what I seen within my own division, those ppl sometimes really dun care about u. Just for example, yesterday, SUPPOSINGLY, my division ppl prepared lunch for everyone (ya right....only those visible to them.....unfortunately, I'm the invisible one to them).

I was away while they were giving out the lunch box. So, too bad....they THOUGHT i wasnt around (even though my Pc was on, my table was scattered with papers) and, they eventually missed out me. It felt so bad....left out by ur own colleagues. Some of them who were not in the office, they already put everything nicely on their tables. Great...what a nice company. Then, when I asked my admin ppl regarding to this, one of them even said...."Because you r the not the real daughter here...or u r the step-daughter(anak tiri) here, tat's y we left u out..." that's wat he actually told me. What the H*ll....as if I'm not working in there is it? What's the difference btw me n u all? They can totally ignore you n without feeling sorry for that. Still, they can talk sth like this. It's such a big difference in treatment, tat's discrimination!!! And he was still dare to say out so loudly in the office. I was furious and upset with all these idiotic attitudes. No wonder, they only can have the visions n missions, but without the ability to realise it. With all these "thoughtful" ppl, that's y the company still staying at the same place (or deteriorating in mk share).

Actually, it's just a lunch box worths few ringgit. But, the thing is not the money matter. It's how they treat you, how you r treated by them. They treat u as if you r invisible......No matter what u did, they still left u out....without even feel bad about how poor their attitudes are. At 1st, I felt so hard to take it...But now, I think I somehow learn something from them. Though those ppl treated me badly now....but someday they will be sorry for that. Coz I wont b staying there forever. Just take this as challenge or take this as some kind of training....hehe~ I think I will be strong enough to face any other ppl outside this org. Thanks for ur thoughtfulness....

p/s: now, already able to handle most of the job(at least 75%). But still...I need to learn how to handle these bunch of ppl......aiks~lot to learn........n i need to have a strong heart.....else, easily can get heart attack + vomit tonnes of blood everyday....:P

明天又得开始做工啦~
在家享受了几天的假期，
变得懒散，不想动了哦~
不过，工作三天，又是周末了。
好吧~好好地干活。三天后，又是假期；）

Lots of friends who are working in auditing and accounting firms....now almost the peak for them....Peak means lot of work lar...hhehe~just hope they take care of themselves and sometimes do leave msg online so that I know they are still ok......(n still alive there...)haha~

My work in my company...so far still ok. Only thing is u need to have a very strong "heart"....if not, u will be getting heart attack easily. Everyday, there's some new issues coming up(which are pretty normal everywhere) and some interesting things making ur head spins. Good, then ur brain wont become "berkarat" lar....(i cant think of the word berkarat in english..help me...). Yaya...I do love challenges...(to comfort myself whenever there are some challenging issues arise).(thanks to edyeo - berkarat = rusty)

Think of positive points for working in ur company...
(tat's wat my parents told me)
Ok....think positively.....let me think think...
good benefits...like lots of annual leave.....
no need to stay late? 530 -6pm can go home de...( yaya...this one can b counted as one - some OT kaki said)
others ar...wont get fire by the company? can it be one of the benefit?
what else? I really cant think of others de lar....

Im making myself more positive thinking toward this job( as i know i need to work there, for quite some time)
Im making myself to accept the reality.....and stop complaining on things.....
Im making myself more committed to the company....(this one is really difficult)

Since u cant do anything else, why not jz accept it.
Happy or not, u still need to work there.
RIght....this is the fact...and I cant change it
So, take it. less complain n start working.
mayb one day i will fall in love with u....(ya right...i know i will never love u...mayb i jz can like u)
mayb one day i will love u more than anyone else (ya right....i know i will not do so...but i will happy to be with u)

I'm getting insane here....
Stop asking me to do stupid things...and stop doing stupid things (for u and myself)
Then mayb i will start to love u.....(dun get misunderstand....the "u" here means my company)

I'm in the office now...although today is a public holiday...
1st time, working on public holiday. It's really not a good one...coz there's actually no ppl in my own office(though other dept got ppl). Alone...quiet....and a bit hot inside my office.
Emptiness is the description for my office and LRT station.
Food court is closed, and mini marts are closed as well.
Just hope i can get my replacement holiday....><~

有谁是不能被取代的？常常看到报章里，无论是政治人物或是明星歌星的，都是可以被其他人所取代。后浪推前浪，不是吗？

如今，在公司里，能取代我的位置的人，不胜其数。所以，只要我能有一些特长或特别的能干，老板少了我不能活下去的时候，我才是独一无二的，无法被取代的。可是，你又怎能确保将来能代替你的人不会出现？只有不断的为自己增值，一直保持最佳状态，才不会被他人所淘汰。这样，会不会天天在提心吊胆的？这样会不会好累？

在男女之间，谁又能取代谁呢？只要是看起来像贤妻良母的和会煮饭的，都是你的选择吗？
看来，能取而代之的，有一箩那么多的的女性。符合这些条件的，有那么多人。是不是当你遇见条件更好的，你就舍旧取新的呢？还是，你只会不断埋怨、恨铁不成钢啊？（哈哈~恨铁不成钢不是用在这里吧∶p）

没有人喜欢自己能轻易地被别人取代。
不需要是唯一，只希望自己的存在是有特别的意义。

No body cant be replaced by others. Everyone can have someone else to substitute ur places, no matter you r a superstars or politicians. Sooner or later, they will be replaced by some younger people.

Currently, my position in the company...can be replaced by anyone...as long as he/she got brain, hands n legs. Unless, I'm so outstanding n brilliant. And, my boss cant live without me(which is quite impossible here). Somehow, the not-replaceable days wont b long as ppl keep improving their skills. Who knows, someday they can easily replace ur place in a finger snap. Only if you continuously upgrading urself, improving ownself etc...but then, wont tat be tiring? Wont you be worring all times....

Between one couple...do you think he/she can be replaced easily? If she jz happened to be matched ur requirements, would she be picked coz these reasons? If she jz someone from hundreds, who jz so coincidently matched your rules n regulations, will you jz take her as ur spouse/partner? Do you mean that you can simply find someone as long as their fulfil ur so-called requirements? Is tat meant that when you find someone who can fit ur requirements as compare to existing one, then you will turn to her without any hesitation? Or you will keep on complain on his/her weaknesses?

No one would like to be replaced by others.
I do not wish I am the one and only one, but just wish that I am someone special to you...not tat easy to be replaced by others.

从来没想到自己也有加班加到深夜的一天啊~至少，我以为在这间公司没有这种事情。可惜，我错了。老板加起班来，面不改色，可就让我这些小员工苦了脸，可悲地陪他一起加班开会的（算不算是舍命陪君子啊？？）。老板说今天这件事不搞清楚，大家焉用想离开会议室。

我就是坐在一旁，听他们讨论，最后越谈越激动。还好，最后大家冷静冷静了，把我吓得不知所措。从太阳高挂空中，直到夕阳西下，我还是坐在那里。想要回家，回不得啊~哎~一面听，一面心里在哀叹。冷气越吹越冷，眼皮越来越重。如果可以在那里睡觉，还不错嘛。

放我回家！放我回家~心里在呐喊。

一个小时又一个小时，肚子越来越饿。我的思绪老早已经不只到哪里神游去啦~想着美味的晚餐，想着清凉的水…….哎呀哎呀~我要回家！！！好饿好饿，哎~~~~~~~心情越来越差，越来越忧郁。讨厌！干啥把我困在这间房间，放我出去，放我回家啦~

老板原来不是铁人，也会肚子饿哦。很好，老板饿啦，拨电给pizza外卖。可是，当外卖送到时，我已经饿到不想吃了，只想快点回家。哎~可惜呀~还有好多议程还没讨论耶，换句话说，焉想回家啦。

10点左右，对方被轰炸到没力。可是，我家老大还是那么清醒，精力充沛的，看起来再谈上两三个小时不是问题。拜托，老大不累，小的已经归心似箭了耶。议程眼看要到最后一项，我以为就快完了吧。偏偏，结论又是一个长篇大论的。没错，是应该把话说清楚，以免有所误解的。终于，大家把话说清楚了，要跟进的，就跟进；要行动的，就该行动了。耶~~~可以回家了。

加班后记：非常佩服常常加班的朋友。我自问没有那个能力加班。一次加班已经差不多要了我的命。希望不会再有这么“美好”的加班回忆录了。常常加班的朋友，请接受我无限的崇拜吧~你们真是行啊！

哎~明天又要回去工作。
假期不够用。。。。。
蓝蓝的心情
加上灰灰的天
真是糟糕~

重重的包袱
苦苦的脸孔
慢慢的火车

老板的脸黑黑
再看员工欠扁的脸
怒发冲冠，一言难尽
鸡同鸭讲，对牛弹琴
白费心机，吃力不讨好

忍一时风平浪静
小不忍则乱大谋
还真应该把这两句挂起
时时提醒自己，忍忍忍
不用去拜师学艺。
已是大马新一代忍者。

Wkend again...And, again, I'm back to my hometown;)
Everyday, I have been looking forward to wkend...
It has been a wkly agenda....
Since Monday, I hav been looking forward to Friday....
My friend said...u jz hav to accept the fact, u r working in tat company...Else, u will always b so demotivated to work, so not-committed with the work or the company. Yup~I agree with tat. But then, sometimes, when dealing with those so not cooperative ppl n so not-good-working-attitude ppl, u will get to be frustrated and even wanna hantam(knock) their face with tat damn heavy n big file on my table.

Today, I was doing the stupid messy recon...And guess wat, the fellow who is supposed to do tat damn job was still relaxing there....I was so frustrated when I cant figure wat the h*ll the previous things were about. So, I decided wat for Im suffering here and he is so relaxing n enjoying there....Wanna suffer, let both of us suffer together. wahahahah...(im such a devil) but, believe me, when you deal wif those kind of ppl, u will eventually turn into a demon. I dun wanna b so nasty n bad to them, but jz cant help it. U treat me well, I will do u a favor n treat u well. Contrary, if u b nasty to me, n jz hope that i will b nice to u? Sorry, im not a saint...

Back to the story....So, I called tat fellow n ask him to come over to settle the thing wif me. Ok, he said...Give me 5-10min to settle my things there. Alright, I said..well, I understand I cant simply jz ask him stop relaxing suddenly(cant I??) Mayb he's talking sth serious wif the other colleague or saying something matter wif death n live during office hour??? Nvm, 10min, of coz I can wait. WHile waiting for HIM, I continued with my work(try to b super hero saving the numbers from missing their way to the correct accounts) So, i waited n waited...It was almost 430pm...tat fellow still not yet appear...

He's still talking some serious business at the back there.(taking his own sweet time) Alright, I decided not to wait...I send an email to him and our superior...making an official appointment wif him. And, during 5pm, he came by n said that, he totally forgotten about im waiting for him to come over for the discussion...I was totally speechless....Very well, seems like Mr. Bz had too much of serious conversation until he actually forgotten I was waiting. No problem...I told him. You can forget about it for today...coz i already send mail to u n the boss....we'll hav our discussion on Monday. During tat moment, I was actually so angry n frustrated. During office hour, you r chatting...Not a problem to me...IF YOU HAV FINISHED UR WORK...But, you're not....What do u mean by forgetting to work?? What make me angrier...he said you can hav it done n he's suggesting to pass the work to me. ARE U INSANE OR WAT? NO, I told him...Tat's part of work but I only can help u out with some details. Yes, I do know ur hav ur workloads...But I do hav mine as well....And, if u could jz talk less n work more during office hour, then u wont b facing such problems....Additionally, if I help to finish works in ur job scope, then am i supposed to do the same for others? Or if you wan me to do, then r u going to share the salary wif me? Damn....this is not the 1st time. Last time, he did the job...n end of the day, he asked me wat did he do....Short term memory ya~Mz hav think of sth to stop this from happenning...Else, i will develop high blood pressure + heart attack in another few months.

By the way...hope he's not on MC or EL on next wk.....If u ask me...tat's not impossible...coz, tat's the company culture....

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it's another wkend....
Last few wk...din really hav good rest during wkend....
During last last Mon...i almost overslept in the train...haha~luckily still manage to wake up at the right station at the right time;) phew....if not, i gotta get down at the next station n back to the previous station n this takes time:P

Recently, every nite sleep quite early...coz i was so tired during last few days.
Mentally tired? and physically tired?
or both?
I dun really understand y am i so tired.
Im tired of my life??
Lifeless? Meaningless?
tat's wat working life is?
work, eat, sleep, eat, work....
WHen you're back from work, you jz too tired to do other things.
ALl you wanna do, is to lay down n rest.
Tmr gotta work again.
Nothing such as going out late nite, no more yum cha time with friends...
Even im free enough to go for the tea session, no ppl is going to accompany me.
All r so bz with work...
Arrgggg.g........I need to live!!! I need holiday!!!!!!!!!
GIVE ME HOLIDAY~